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Feb 17, 2006
We belong to a race called Leachers, trapped in a social predicament between they rulers and the pariahs.
This is the present. The lands are enclosed, like a gaol. Tiers upon tiers of roads called yawriats encloses a killing field with unfortunate souls that have been wrenched from their Homes.
The pariah race is the Studirts. They have lives. Lives led by laws, laws enforced by the suffocating belief of a respect, a respect of capital punishment and the voices of the rulers.
The ruling race is called the Balarians, led by the tyranical Olivier. His Hounds and his aide, Lapog.
We. are the only sane beings in J0w0ss and we are the silent terrorists on a rebellion. Olivier's authocracy has outlived his use merely a reduduant soul. a king lear of our time. The Leachers have been unable to do much and we are calling for help.
Posted at 01:36 pm by carynnie
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Jan 22, 2006
 gross. lar. wondering how cum i look like tsus?
ok its tsus lar.. hehe ; p photo : ryn....
Posted at 11:22 am by carynnie
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Jan 19, 2006
a wretched friend.
like a wretched lie.
comes to a wretched end.
a wretched soul, beguiled.
haha tsus. very sorri.
deleted the original entry. was damn konked out when i wrote it... might be a tad hurtful to u know who.. sho i took it out. but if u want to know more.... just ask me lar.
Posted at 10:17 pm by carynnie
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job : is something u do. herm. I think.
I love my job.
i cant tell you just now much i love it. i love it like the sky is purple and that the sea is red.
Ok so perhaps we are just on different planets right now.
Well doing admin is just so enjoyable. I have begun to appreciate the finer things in life. such as
1) seeing the sunrise
2) goin home from work. taking the mrt
3) the art of sleeping.
1) the knack of watchin the sunrise is fairly simple, either u get the front row view of the sunrise via an enthralling exprience of face against MRT window, with bag jammed into ur behind. or two, watching ur screensavers change from windows to sunrise in the bahamas.
its a great experience, with the wind in your air... if u find it too chilly... or a tad too warm... just customise the temperature... with a one step remote button.
2) I TELL U.
i nv got such a strong ephipany of life on the mrt ever ever before.
ok other that the sudden realisation that singapore is indeed a multi-racial society.... u notice that when they announce the step behind the yellow line for like the thousandth time...
ok ok ok ...
gotta tell u 1) every one ur sharing ur air with in the comparent... is goin to leave this side of the grave one day or another . ??!!??? yeah i think its a pretty dur comment too
2) if ur inching ur way past the sticky home-goin office crwd.... ALWAYS i stress ALWAYS stand behind old ah mahs. somehow they hv some kinda super human strength to like part crwds u know.... seriously i dunno how they do it... im about as tall as the handles.. and this like yoda ah mah. ... just parts the sea of bodies... with her little hobble.
must be SUCH a courteous crwd.
ok. * just keep in mind that these ewoks are heavily armed with elbows and what nots *
... victims are not only the pple who are conned into thinkin they are fragile creatures... but bystanders and parasitic mrt leaves like ME... who get gutted in the process as well.
3) i dun think i need to emphasise this enuf.
i tot i was cool enuf to be able to nod off in lectures and buses...
now i do it STANDING>
even to JURONG EAST
when they change tracks...
aaaaaaaaaaaa. cool.
i can also sleep while waiting while i ( intentionally to buy time ) restart my comp aaaaaa.
i just love data entry. and my job.
Of corz.
Posted at 11:56 am by carynnie
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Never give out your password or credit card number in an instant message conversation.
Krokodil - Missing you... says:
hey ryn
carynnie * ) Archangel says:
hei jo
daft_maulfoy@blogdrive.com and law firms: to write wrongs to right wrongs has been added to the conversation.
carynnie * ) Archangel says:
btw... most germans to me are Adolf and OTTO
Krokodil - Missing you... says:
hey tsus
carynnie * ) Archangel says:
hey tsus , tell me a german name.
Krokodil-Missing you... says:
schnappie
Krokodil - Missing you... says:
=)
carynnie * ) Archangel says:
otto
carynnie * ) Archangel says:
where s tsus??
Krokodil - Missing you... says:
??
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whose krokodil
carynnie * ) Archangel says:
say the first german name that comes to mind
Krokodil - Missing you... says:
krokodil
carynnie * ) Archangel says:
tsus is sho unfarn
Krokodil - Missing you... says:
haiz
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who is krokodil
Krokodil - Missing you... says:
me lar me lar
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oh
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kurtz
carynnie * ) Archangel says:
whats that
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my lit text
Krokodil - Missing you... says:
kurtz?
carynnie * ) Archangel says:
ah
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heart of darkness
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conrad
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kurtz also means short
Krokodil - Missing you... says:
oh. ok. im lost.
carynnie * ) Archangel says:
yeah , guessed as much.
carynnie * ) Archangel says:
kurtz
carynnie * ) Archangel says:
is not short
daft_maulfoy@blogdrive.com and law firms: to write wrongs to right wrongs says:
never mind
carynnie * ) Archangel says:
i checked babel fish
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yes it is
carynnie * ) Archangel says:
btw i tot heart is Herz
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hahaha... hertz la..... Im cold.... fuckin freezin.
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light a fire
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where joanne
carynnie * ) Archangel says:
use ur last matchstick
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see you frighten her away
carynnie * ) Archangel says:
and wither and perish out on the street
carynnie * ) Archangel says:
u lah
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with ur deutsche
Krokodil - Missing you... says:
...
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lets speak me canonese
carynnie * ) Archangel says:
canon nese hahaha
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kam qi ho muem ho
carynnie * ) Archangel says:
teach us CANON nese
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ho???
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ho ho ho
Krokodil - Missing you... says:
what's muem??
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mo meh tai bat liu geh
carynnie * ) Archangel says:
?
carynnie * ) Archangel says:
whats bat liu geh
Krokodil - Missing you... says:
yar
Krokodil - Missing you... says:
question mark mark
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teao teao siu siu siak yan din din
carynnie * ) Archangel says:
mark mark mark
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haha
carynnie * ) Archangel says:
?
Krokodil - Missing you... says:
oi??
carynnie * ) Archangel says:
haha.. try this
carynnie * ) Archangel says:
ting dong
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meh wah
carynnie * ) Archangel says:
pin kor.
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hahaha
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hai ngo
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hai kei
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haha
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lei
carynnie * ) Archangel says:
wats Wo??
Krokodil - Missing you... says:
was that eng or canto?
carynnie * ) Archangel says :
whats ME in canto
carynnie * ) Archangel says:
i cant spell it !
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ngon
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ngo
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ngo
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haha
carynnie * ) Archangel says:
but thats NE -GO
carynnie * ) Archangel says:
I am NEGO
Krokodil - Missing you... says:
haha
Krokodil - Missing you... says:
it's not ne-go wat ...
to be continued......
out for lunch.
Posted at 11:49 am by carynnie
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Dec 12, 2005
** HAHA WROTE THIS DURING THE PRE PRELIM PERIOD... MUST HV BEEN RATHER STRESS.... LOOKING BACK ... IM GLAD.. I MADE IT OUT ALIVE.... HAHAHAHHAHA.... WROTE THIS IS AUGUST... FOUND IT PRETTY... AHAHHA WHAT I MIGHT CALL INTRIGUING...**
Its about being too smart of your own good.
Its about typing too much rubbish.
And essentially, it’s a blend of too much hitchhiking tales and too much time on your hands.
Wait. Its not that I have eons of free time. Its just that I make time out, to find time.
Complex isn’t it. Its so difficult to slack with out feeling the pangs of guilty conscience, the belief that taking a breather would often accumulate to laziness, laziness snowballing to idleness, and eventually you’ll be this couch potato who , other than has an intimate relationship with the act of wasting, you pretty much don’t have a life.
So then we can conclude that self torture is the meaning of life. For starters the belief that tomorrow is going to be a better day is self torture. You keep false hopes through out the day, believing that tomorrow your going to feel suddenly accomplished, and that,you have achieved something. More often that not, you would be disappointed once the next day has come and gone. And if you don’t, then I can only fathom two main reasons. One, your hormonal imbalance, which you would someday seek a doctor for treatment, secondly, all the worldly forms of escapism. Such as, porn, books, drugs, movies, smoking, watching Friends. They are all fundamentally the same thing. A gauge as to how much our lives are in fact, constant self-torture. The more you need your porn, books, movies, drugs, alcohol ( just to name a few ), or gardening, the more your life is a droll.
Simple as that.
Imagine a room of patients waiting to die. They know they are going to go off soon, randomly of course, but to ease their boredom, doctors throw such forms of escapism in their faces, giving all of them a false hope, that life isn’t so bad after all
Posted at 12:18 pm by carynnie
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Oh Gosh.
It been such an awful long time since i last wrote, yesh. to myself. Herm. Sho for the entire period of my As ... ive hv sold my soul ..., and lost aim in life... with only the syllabus driving me to accomplish my daily goals. I was but an empty shell.
sho its the hols. big surprise. its going to cont being the hols... till july. HOLS... is one hell of a euphemism actually. we are mad. mad from studying too hard. mad from finding jobs that are seemingly vacant, but never bestowed upon us... life is mad. like on a carousel.... we are spinning round and round in this never ceasing deluded happiness..... this is true misery... to be suffering and yet think ur happy...
then again... this might be bliss as well... or ignorance...wadeva.
.....
heiz............................ *sign*
Posted at 12:00 pm by carynnie
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Jul 9, 2005
its been such a long time since i last blogged... u know.. kinda like a memory lapse. when all the world around me had gone mute and all i have for comfort was the belief that i have my life in control.... doin the work on the following day of what i had planned the day before.
just exactly what i am searching for now.
some feeling that i felt before, but is now lost. went back to sc yesterday. honestly... sc is such a clean school... clean as in white washed, gleaming, sheer clealiness... as compared to like murky overcrowded ... unrtiled hc... or the empty rj... sc is just stepford-ish-ly perfect. just the ideal place for backstabbing . aniwae. what with desperate housewives and all.. the theme and title for this yr's drama production is like mothers like daughters. ok. im from drama ( like a need to remind myself that) ... and i can see that they have put in alot of effort... but i hv that strong hauch... it just wasnt enough. Too many subplots... and no men in a play... just made this play a tad lopsided. kinda like a one armed performer prancing on stage.. try to juggle three balls at a time... all we can do is to applaud them for the effort... and sympathise for all that is lacking in the script.
my god... a 3 minute seranade on slyvester... ??? why??? WHY??? what more... one of the stronger actresses on stage....!!!! ok aniwae.... scene transition was beautiful... costumes were pleasant.. and the scenes were just appealing...
they got a gold this time... not goldwithhonours... what would have been a silver... during our time... im not trying to like suan anione.. but i distinctly remember some one in sec 1 ( we were then sec4) during rise of the phoenix... calling us lazy... with screwed up attitudes... etcetc ... i already started wondering what their production would have been like... and honestly... it turned out just the way i expected it to be.
am i evil. im mean?
ok. maybe im just ever sho protective of our production.
forever. rise of the phoenix.
and btw... even if miss sie and chua or jeremiah choi hv forgotten us... i will never be ever more grateful to them for helping us put up such a great production...
pple.... nv 4get 16thjuly .... * )
Posted at 09:29 pm by carynnie
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Jun 6, 2005
i just killed my entire first week of hols Away. (resonanting voice of mrlee )hehe
monday slack and visit cousins from US
tues train till i die.. and watched madagascar. and slept
wed trained then slept
thurs econs lesson, compt, watched sean say, went for dinner with cousins, played with spencer, finished watching seansay.
fri cont playing with spencer , went library to mug, dunno what i did...read and slacked i think
sat played read.. the starved for 30 hrs till sun
sun still starving
came home at 9pm.
slept for like 4 hrs nap... on monday too aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
u know. i was at famine camp.... i kept reflecting... remembering... or rather thinking about the time spent in Australia... i can say without a doubt that it was one of the best times i ever spent in my life. i can still remember the toilets. and the weather.. and the buildings.. and the constant feeling of wanting to go home and yet wishing this will never end.
i just hate studying urgh
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plus the fact im stoopid.. does help much too.
btw im really placing my bets that the jedi-monkish obiwan is in fact gay.
for the record.. i really really love ewan... and yesh.. his entire family as well.
Posted at 11:41 pm by carynnie
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Jun 5, 2005
i know im not being desperate.
and yet im desperate for him. and that s what scares me
what the hell am i thinking.
honestly. he's nothing much. ...
but i just like the way ............. i dunno... i just like the way he is.... or rather it is....
it refering to him and the aura thing......
maybe its the way he tells such good stories.. and yet i know he likes to exaggerate.... but still i adore it.
it could be his hands. fair and yet strong.
i could laugh now.... how the hell... could i ever like such a kind of person hahaha ; p
but u know... i have that stupid tendency... to look out for his face. see what he is doing.
its not as if i feel extremly happy when i see him... all i want to do is to keep looking...
and i love his company. MY hollowness just swallows me up. Speechless.
his vulnerability and his self-demeaning masculinity...
i sound like i could eat him up. these are but words... that do not truly describe how i feel.
i dont think i could ever find the words to explain ... it.
anyway i wont be doing anything coz... i dunno.. its just so unrational and sho... misfitting.
at least now im not afraid of looking right into his eyes. heiz. oh what the heck.
Posted at 10:41 pm by carynnie
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